`` you heard so. leave me alone.

Sunday, August 30
4:00 PM

i dont know why i asked people why they cant take things easy.
in fact...
i think is I who cant..
people said that they dont want to lose you or whatever shit...
ITS BULLSHIT.
they move on faster than you think..
and i feel so dumb and stupid to be feeling sad for him
which i dont have to...

fucker..
you drive me crazy.
you make me feel sad.
you make me lose myself.

your perfect for me but you have problems which i dont like..
and you wont change for me..

goAWAEE fromME ;

2:28 AM

haix..

today whole day like restless.

well.. not really but still got.

afternoon went to driving.

bo xin..

then..

nearly bump into a taxi.

and the uncle keep staring.

wtf lahs.

haix...

i dont know what im thinking and worrying about.

part of it is cause im in holiday mood already.

aha.

but still.....

i think i owe him a lot of apologies.

although he still owe me cash.

and thats two different thing.

but...

still...

im sorry.

im doubting if your serious at all.

though you say you are.

and saying that your cutting yourself.

i can do that too..

anyway,

im sorry that i hurt you

but i gotta do this.

and you will find someone who is much more better, loving and caring than me.

i wont be worried

because...

you can live without having me cause you have others..

you will find love someday. but not with me, though we tired.....

goAWAEE fromME ;

Friday, August 28
3:35 PM

yesterday had so much fun sia.

its helen's bd.
went to kbox and get high
lol.
the price is okay.
25++ bucks with buffet
and we took a lot until we cant finish it.
>.<

we gave her a fcuk perfume gift set.
hope she like it though.
and a made in heaven de cake.
we sing until 10 plus.
well.. its good that they never chase us out.
we took a lot of polaroid films
^^
aha..

after that we stone to think where to go.
sit at the starbucks then kenna chased out.
then we jiu sit at the bench to think and never get chased out -.-
then we went to xing wang
cause its 24/7 i think
but....
nothing appeals us.
so we just left.

then we wanna go to the poepeye to eat
but helen go check it out and said its closed.
so we decided to go newton circus to eat.
then we eat till 2 plus.
then drive lijuan and yp home.
^^

what a good bonding we had.
ahah..

goAWAEE fromME ;

Thursday, August 27
12:40 AM

life is not a pleasure
but a misery.
living in the world so dark
didnt want to see the sun at all.
neither to see your face again.
or to think of the memories we had
that bring us pain for so long.
to think that you dont even trust or have faith in me
it hurts me real bad.

and now i want to end it so badly.
all will be gone and once again im free.
free to do things that is not under your rules.
so please dont try to stop me.

love hurts...

goAWAEE fromME ;

Tuesday, August 25
1:16 AM

HOLY SHIT!
i think i have found life.

haix...
so many things to do....
ok lah. not really alot.
but ...
just hope that i can finish them before i drop dead..

1) get driving license
2) learn electric guitar
3) save more money to own a car
4) more goods!

but for this 2 weeks, i just hope i can pass my exams.
and faster end so i can go find a job.
ahaha.........

goAWAEE fromME ;

Saturday, August 22
3:16 AM

why life have to be so short?
im having flash backs
and ...
im worried and scared at the same time.

what if i perish in this world suddenly?
what will happen to my dearest?
what will happen to all my stuffs?
what happen to my future?
all will be gone..

we been through alot
and
i will do whatever thing i could to make you stay with me.
to cherish all the times we had together.
to love you as who you are.
to share my thoughts and dreams with you.

even if one day im gone.. i will still love you.

goAWAEE fromME ;

Saturday, August 8
3:11 AM

today was quite a boring day.
exams coming and im still slacking away.
the mood is not there.
haix...
what to do..

today walked to the mrt station with naz they all.
near the dustbin got 3 guys smoking.
i know my sixth sense very well.
and then suddenly naz told me the guy keep looking at me.
but not me.
is there. i think.
is like.. wtf?

anyway, went to jurong point to watch G.I JOE
quite nice.. and those weapons is chio!
hahaas.
didnt manage to play guitar hero today.
but its okay... lolx.

i will show you that i can live without you.
if not how did i survive till this age?

goAWAEE fromME ;

Wednesday, August 5
11:23 PM

so you trying so hard just to ....

make me fall?

make me be hurt?

well..

guess what?

im not.

and never will be.

if you think im a poser or a loser..

so what?

im fine with it.

because i know that your worst than me.

at least i didnt act to be someone who im not.

im not fake, im real.

why is it so hard to just tell the truth?

if you just tell the truth i wont be so pissed off.

and i thought we are meant to be together.

but im wrong......

goAWAEE fromME ;