`` you heard so. leave me alone.

Thursday, July 30
2:24 PM

what the fuck!
today came to school for nothing
i skipped maths and sem pro.
cause when to trim the eyebrown
when in cab...
then suddenly Q say the material sci lecture and tutorial is cancelled.
omg. wth sia.
so... im now slacking with naz at south canteen.
so bored..

haix..
i feel like a fucking asshole right now.
being played i also didnt realise.
haix.
really is a dumb ass.

but i knew something like this is gonna happen.
so its expected.
and i dont think i wanna kill him just yet...
he will pay for what he have done.

why cant you just tell me the whole truth rather than hiding from me.
which makes me damn pissed off.
whats wrong telling the truth to people.
or you think that im not good enough for you?

haix..
some guys is meant to be fake always.
so....
no point being so true to them.

i dont think i can even trust you now.
you have been lying to me.
i dont think you even meant what you said.
what a fucker..

goAWAEE fromME ;

Monday, July 27
10:37 PM

argh....
feeling soo fucking down right now.
i screwed up my life.
and i dont want to make it better.
im a loser plus a fucker.
you know you hate me.
i hate myself too.

but why when i speak my mind
you always dont believe me
i dont wish to talk craps too.

goAWAEE fromME ;

Saturday, July 25
2:52 PM

lately so much stuffs have happened.
people just come and go.
haiix...
but thats life.
we have no control over it.

he makes me miss my grandfather.
though...
he has been out of my life for a few years now
and im still trying to heal myself.
i miss him badly.
i miss seeing him smoking in the corner of the kitchen.
i miss all the stuffs he do.
he told me..
life is short, you dont know when you will be perish from this world, so live your life till max.

ahas...
i wish im as strong as him.
little things come and go
and i will be broken into pieces.
im fucking WEAK.
haiix...

goAWAEE fromME ;

1:46 PM

im trying to get over with that sum of money
still..
when think bout it, my heart will be broken.
haix..

as i crossed the memory lane,
i saw you waving at me.
but the vision is blurred.
i dreamt bout you almost during the day and night.
you make my mind busy.
and i love what you have done to me.
i dont care what other people say bout me.
as long as you know im with you.
that is all it matters.

life is so fucking short and unpredictable...

goAWAEE fromME ;

Wednesday, July 22
8:55 AM

today is the solar eclipse
and bloody heel, sg cant see it.
damn sia.
haiix...

so bored and tired in e maths.
haha..
IM SLACKING ALL THE WAY.
thats why i flunk the sub.
not badly though.
heng....
lol...

lucky today end at 3pm.
then gonna go espirt salon to highlight hair.
i wanna highlight pink but people say it will spoil the hair.
why sia.
if not i will highlight blonde.
still...
haiix....
hope it turn out prefectly fine.
so yeah...
praying hard.
>.<
hahaas..

days are numbered.
and i never know how you feel.
we are like stranger to each other.
but why?
i love you
and i hope you know it too.

goAWAEE fromME ;

Thursday, July 16
11:16 AM

shit fuck.
im still sick.
but i think i can go school on friday already.
thats great!
i miss qq and others.
they sure will think i got h1n1 lah.
which i dont have.
haiix......
and tomorrow im having MS test.
i think i better study now.

stupid online MC submition.
so hard to find those lecturer's names.
argh..

i just fall into pieces
and i need you to help me fix me back.

goAWAEE fromME ;

Tuesday, July 14
10:53 PM

it been 3 days that im sick.

rotting at home

my fever wont decrease.

wow.

first time experience it.

aha..

i just hope i sick dao till end of the week.

lazy to go school too.

LOL.

i think they will kill me sia. >.<

haix.

i feel that we known each other for so long.

even though it is just a short moment.

you pierce through my heart

everytime i saw you, the wound starts to grow.

it like im thrown into a pool of pain

and i cant get out of it

you took away those memory from me.

you can keep it cause i dont need it

i dont know if im doing the right thing not.

but i know my heart isnt with you

it had died

and it cant be bought back to life anymore..

goAWAEE fromME ;

Friday, July 10
12:47 AM

today the IPC test i can 100% assure you that i will flunk it.
i didnt study lah.
when to sleep at 3am today.
so damn tired when doing the test
lol.

after that went to eat mac breakfast.
mood is damn good lah.
cause common test is over.
yeah!
ahaha.
and i went to try hotcakes with honey and the garlic chili sauce.
its nice!
lolx.

went to library to do the comm skills role play.
its damn funny and stupid.
ahaha.
then at the bench there,
i accidentally go touch naz's there.
damn it.
i dont mean to ...
haiix.. >.<
but lucky she understand.
ahhaa.

then went to town.
to spend money.
indeed i did.
went to buy a gucci bag. which costs 670 bucks.
i find it not ex lah.
its freaking chio.
but still.....
my mum gonan kill me i know.
and im prepared for it.

and lijuan's bd coming le.
cant wait. ^^

goAWAEE fromME ;

Wednesday, July 8
2:02 PM

im sitting outside lijuan's classroom now.
damn bored and tired.
ahah.
im studying for IPC tomorrow.
but so like no mood lah.
and...
I WANT TO SLEEP! >.<

later lijuan having a test at 4pm.
then at 3.30pm im gonna to the library and wait for her till 5pm.
after that we gonna study till 6.30pm.
woahs. ahah.
oh man..
how i can tahan until 5pm.
when im yawning right now.
such a loser...
mentally prepared to flunk all my common test lah.
but i dont want to repeat them.
fuck!
haiix...

im fucking losing control of myself.
i dont know what to do.
im a confused fucker.

goAWAEE fromME ;

Tuesday, July 7
11:59 PM

another day has gone...
today went to rp to meet lijuan at 11 plus.
i was damn freaking out when i cant find the bus 169 lah.
haiix..
woodlands is too big and confusing. >.<

lijuan guided my way to the berth.
then 2 stops i reached rp.
and im lost lah. cause i walked to the taxi stand there.
haiix.. im such a loser.

after that lijuan meet me at the posb atm and we ate our lunch at the coffee shop
one of her friend was like siao de lah.
continuously smoked 5 ciggy. -.-
i dont think heavy smoker will even continuously smoke lah.
what a crazy dude.
ahah.
the craziest thing i do is to sit in in lijuan's class.
like freaking strange lah.
damn it.
though rp is werid.. but i think its slacking but not as slack as nyp.
ahaha.

waited for lijuan till 3.30.
and finally im done with my pd slides lah.
of cause with the help of lijuan.
in making the background look damn chio!
haha.

after school, when to jp with lijuan, lijuan's friend.
we left helen walking to woodlands lah.
haiix.

reached jp le, we like starving lah.
then went to eat long john silver.
its like getting more and more expensive. ):
we walked till 6 plus jiu go home.
freaking exhausted lah. >.<
but still...
here i am.
haven sleep yet. lol.

everything you do does not require a reason
so stop asking for one!
is because of you being like that, makes me more tired than ever.
i just need a break, why is it so hard?
i know i take things easy.
you know i love you.
but having the break wont hurt too.

goAWAEE fromME ;

Monday, July 6
11:51 PM

today having e maths and cep paper.

im mentally prepared to flunk it.

plus today not feeling so well.

woke up with a heavy headache

and on the way to the lift.

i puked my gastric juices out. >.<

after that

met q and farid at the yck mrt station

drank a can of soya bean and ate panadol.

feeling much better.

and today was Naz's bd!

fuck sia.

i didnt bought her anything.

feel so sad..

just treat her pizza hut and the bd cake only.

haiix..

after cep paper

went to amk with q and farid.

ahaha.

its so boring. -.-

then went walking to the mac

q fell down.

me and farid was like OMG.

we dont know what to do lah.

then a kind hearted aunty come and help q up.

THANKS a lot! (:

SG need more people like her urgently!

you think im not suffering?

im suffering as much as you do right now.

i may not show in the surface

but truth is .....

im falling apart right now.

i know how much i despise those people.

and now i despise myself more.

how can i be with you when im in this state right now.

all i need is TIME...

to clear my mind.

and to think straight.

im sorry.....

goAWAEE fromME ;

Sunday, July 5
12:22 AM

woahs..
i still feel so happy sia.
ahaha.
thanks to his friend.
for telling me such a big news.
so grateful.
^^

they are so damn perfect for each other.
hope they ruin each other's lives badly though.
sorry for saying that, but...
they BOTH SUCKS like hell.
again...
what a perfect little couple.
hahaha.

today went to his house to study e maths.
and guess what..
i took 3 hours or more just to read one topic.
WTF.
haiix..
screw this common test badly.

planning to test one.
but in the end chatting with friends.
=.=
im mentally prepared to flunk this fucking badly.

im having trouble over you.
but i love what you do to my heart.

goAWAEE fromME ;