`` you heard so. leave me alone.

Friday, March 25
1:55 AM

dis is da day. where i will rmb in my heartx. 24/3/2005
my grandpa.. whu is close to mi.
da person whu i luv so much..
da person whu alwaes beside mii. supportin mi all da time.. is nw gone..
why is it so sudden?!
da moment u r wif us. n da moment u r gone..
how could u leave us like dat?!
leavin us.. ur luv ones in dis big world.. sniff.
we all kep crying. cant believe tat u left us so soon...
despite of tat...
we were all be brave n carry on wif our lifes..
but.. now u r gone... we will miss u so so badly..
even though u didnt tok to us fer da last time..
its okay.. coz...
u will alwaes remain in our heartx. forever...

thx fer takin care of mi when i was young until now... thx veri veri much.. sobx..

wish u R.I.P.. god bless u..

hope u r happy in da heaven.. =)

goAWAEE fromME ;

Saturday, March 19
11:15 PM

sum tings are to be mend to be tat way..
no matter how ya change it.
it just cant be donee.but u tried ur best. to fulfiled ur dreams.
to get em on da rite track. which they arent in da first place.
as time passes...
tings will eventually changed bak to da begining of where they started frm.
so there is no use getting em bak now.
even u wanted em to be again..
it will jus makee ya mre upset every seconds. every mins. every hours.
dun tink bt it may help u recover faster. but no ya cant help it.it hurted u mre than anyone else did. but u stl luv it beri much.
how can dis be..?!?!
the wounds it madee. can never be cured..
u tried nt to care bt it. but it keep huntin u.. in ur dreamss..
it madee u so scared of it nw..
will u try a new life??
pretendin it never been happened..
u would.. but u cant.. coz there is a scar lefted within ur heartx...
but sumday u would wanted to no y it lefted u.. all alone....

it cant be the way u wanted animre.. take another direction n leave all behide u...

bRok3n dReAmss...

goAWAEE fromME ;

Monday, March 14
10:12 PM

aiya.. so sway man.. still sickx.. tsk tsk.. tats bad... but manage to come to band today.. =)
meet rebecca at bout 6.50 cause she had a meeting mahx.. when there to read storybook.. got prepared.. =p okay... when bout going to 'persu right' suddenly want to vomit.. then ama ask mi to walk out and go to the toilet.. umm.. izzit cause i never eat breakfast or cause i sick?? haix... then yu ting pei mi go toilet.. thx man.. (=
when to set up at the ava room.. it was damn cold man.. argh.. had combine until 11.. then had sectionals.. umm.. charles was teaching mi.. aiya.. then sumtimes got da wrong pitch.. =/ nvm.. will keep trying.. yesish..
he asked mi to bring back instrument tmr.. oh my gosh.. i just recover from my muscle cramps leii.. so mean.. haix... 12.. we fall in.. blah blah.. usual stuffs.. then waited fer rebecca but it was like so so LONG.. so mi. amy. ke xin. phylis. yoke lian. aileen. went to yew tee. den phylis left.. as she was walking we shouted happi birthday to her.. she was so suprised. =D
hang out at the food court until 3 plus.. so tired.. so we left.. went lvl one.. and saw a hat.. so funky man.. wanted to buy it.. but had to save money.. =( when wanted to go home.. mi and ke xin went to guardian.. umm.. we thinking of dyin hair.. =x maybe tml we going to buy the dye hair thingy.. then wed go to aileen's house and do.. so koolx..
reached home.. told my mum bout the funky hat.. umm.. then she let mi buy it.. so.. wewent there and bought it.. weee.. so nice man.. thxie mum.. luv ya.. =))

happy birthday to phylis!!

i aM so in lUrVe... =w

goAWAEE fromME ;

Saturday, March 12
10:11 PM

sIckx..

yest came back from band.. fell sick.. where in band alreadi sickx liao.. =x then my dad at there rushing mi.. coz had to attend my grandpa birthday mahx.. went to yee meng hse and fetch them.. in the car.. my whole body was like aching.. then my mum was busi massaging fer mi.. so nice.. =)
drop my mum at her working place.. then heard my aunt said everyone was not there yet.. we was like suprised.. ^O^ in the end.. went there.. we were the last one.. err.. okay.. dun care. then at there i was like so so tired.. ying kai keep wanting mi to sit with andre.. then i move beside him lor.. yee meng keep looking at mi.. maybe my expression was like dying.. lolx. he called my dad to sit beside mi.. guess what..? ying kai and reon shouted NO out.. what the hell.. =X then andre was so nice.. help mi take food.. orrh.. thats so sweet.. =D then keep touching his hands. cause he was so warm..
when cutting the cake. wanting to record it. suddenly my hp black out. argh! missed the whole tingy.. after that we hang out a while..
umm.. and reach home bout 11 plus.. la la laaa. so tired..

today.. didnt went to band.. sadd. bet i miss a lot of tingy. at home.. did nth much slp. n watch tv.. haix.. thats my life.
umm. chatting wif rebecca. she told mi that.. the OC is out.. guess what?? rebecca is the band major. si ying and charles are the assistant band major.. ze ting and quangyuan are the drills. jordan the secretary. yu ting the treasurer. dor n jia hui dunno the what inter cca tingy. so koolx rite..? heard from rebecca.. that someone was totally dissapointed.. la la laaa.

congrats to ya! =D

does u had to make things compicated fer mi..?
lost fate..

goAWAEE fromME ;

Tuesday, March 8
8:31 PM

life without boiboi ish too different..

had two maths lesson n three chinese lesson.. veri veri the tired..

umm.. chinese wasnt that bad.. left early to help chers out in da canteen.. yupx.. the best is tat.. we could leave the class half an hour early than em.. weee. =) but.. the bad part is that... in da upper sec.. you will look shy shy when all the peeps you knoe saw you at the station.. blehx.. dun realli care bout that.. la la..
at first.. mi and yvonne thought we could be late for poa while working at there.. then mr alan choo ask us to go back first.. cause there will be no one liao.. will be bored.. den.. we okay lor.. nvm..

after recess... saw two sec 4 guys fighting each other.. werid ehh.. fight on the sec 3 lvl.. tsk tsk..

at poa.. ms tan when through the paper.. alot of careless mistakes.. tsk tsk.. then when cum to the MCQ part.. i was like about to fall aslp.. den suddenly heard ms merduati said.. dont want to carry on cause too mani pple was about to fall aslp.. =x yupx.. manage to grab some slp.. =)

chem.. had a open book test..yupx.. then keep asking around.. =x umm.. then let other pple mark.. hmm.. at least got pass lar.. dont caree...

today band.. was ok.. yesterday was being suan by mr lim.. argh.. rebecca oso kana.. so sway man.. then went through bites of prob in the singapore rhapsody.. yarr... and ask us to do the HA thingy.. haa haa.
went to eat dinner with rebecca.. then ke xin called mi to put aileen instrument at my hse.. werid.. lolx.. nvm.. la la laa.. gonna help her polish.. yup yupx..

lei si wo le...

new phrase.. : smile frm da dark side.

goAWAEE fromME ;

Friday, March 4
10:29 PM

why?!?! snif snif...

bio went to the bio lab.. do some experiment.. quite fun lar.. =) mixed the mixture.. blah blah..
then.. pe.. umm.. onli need to ran 4 rounds.. thats good.. after that played the same game again.. the ball and the bat thingy.. yupx.. umm... can say.. i finally know how to play le.. =x
in cme.. we had our free time.. then at there chat chat... haha.. but also sian diao lar.. =w

after recess.. is english mahx.. then i totally forget that had to present a presentation bout supporting a novelist.. argh... then call xiu wei to present.. he dont want.. in the end.. we take turns to read out lor.. so koolx.. then mi the first one.. heheex..
then they keep asking questions... until.. we had no time to reply back to all of them.. blehxx..

today band.. umm.. i survive it.. yay.. claps.. ke xin changed her spec.. erm.. it was ok lar... those tutor didnt come.. had combine with mr lim.. it is ok... sort of enjoy myself.. in this small group.. =D after that.. had sectional with the sec 1.. yar.. then at there chat with them.. haha... then pack up.. fall in.. usual stuffs.. yea..
umm.. today i ignored him.. yarr.. not toking to him.. at all.. yup..
then went home with nathasha and rebecca.. went to buy choco again.. on the way home.. saw yoke lian shouting to us.. and.. saw simon following her.. omg. we quickly ask her to come to us.. then he ran away le.. thats a good sign.. she called seb.. then he pei her lor.. seriously.. they look like.. yar.. but they just bro.. sadd..
went home.. haix.. saw my boiboi not moving.. suddenly just cried it out.. sob sob.. how can it just left mi like that?? being together since i was sec 1.. =( then my mum understand how i feel.. haix..

+ = so so miserble.. may boiboi rest in peace.. *

ur will always be in my heartx.. fer life.. never forget it..

why u left mi.. all alone..?? u know how sad i am..?? =(

goAWAEE fromME ;

Thursday, March 3
8:13 PM

confusion...

got back all my test papers.. yupx.. well... all pass.. except my chinese.. got 44/100.. okay.. thats bad.. but.. i dont like chinese.. haix.. haix.. but then.. i must also work hard.. dont want to go to chinese B.. never!

today.. was the same sian sian day... yarr...
eng.. we had group work.. then joshua wanted to group with us.. i and may was um.. ok lor.. but huay leng dont want.. haix.. at least he is better than yi heng mahx... unfair..! viven tried to change the one piece of paper.. ms thung saw it and snatch it away.. she was so so yuck man... wanting to put the paper into her shirt.. then we all at there boo.. hahah...

after recess... mi made my friend angry.. haix.. =( i just said ma de.. then he angry.. i think.. humph.. so xiao qi one.. =/
okay.. enough bout him.. makes mi so hell... poa.. got back the paper.. ms tan told us that onli SOME of us pass... mi was so scared.. in the end got back my paper.. then xueling told mi that i pass.. so suprised... but onli 21/40.. aiya.. not pass veri well... sadd..
today band.. we went to SCH.. yea.. got bedok north and one gerls sch.. after that it was the gerls sch to perform.. went to sit there and listen to them.. their second piece was charles fav song.. so qiao.. haha... i was so troubled until that i told ke xin what happened.. then she go n ask him.. wa lau.. guess what he say..? he said that i keep pestering him.. which is so not true..!! then say that i keep using those bad words.. well... he oso got say mahx.. still say mi. he realli damn **** sia.. argh.
okay.. whatever.. not gonna talk to him.. fer sumtimes anyway.. blehhx..

at band.. went to buy two bars of choc.. really need it.. badly... lolx.. =x then went home with nathasha and rebecca..

cant get the prob to go away... shoo! shoo! haix..

fuckin guy... wadever..

goAWAEE fromME ;